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Saturday, May 27, 2006
Humilis and Purpa
The darkness of the vast meadows of the north was the last thing one could have ever imagined by looking at the bright orange sun that had just come out from the behind of the distant mountains which were covered with the shiny white snow. It looked as though the life on earth had just begun and the sun had brought to the land a fresh breeze from the vast blooming meadows of the heaven. The high mountains stood below the sun as though they were some blinds that were just pulled down to let the life out. The gentle breeze wandering around was from the same side of the high mountains. It infused the ambience with a voice declaring the birth of a new season. The spring had just arrived.

The sorrow of the harsh winter had left the place for hibernation. Before leaving it had caused to make the land hard with dryness. The dryness was ironic - the frozen surface was covered with snow that would never melt. The ground below the snow had cracked out of lifelessness and the sharp needles of the then hanging flakes of ice on the rough branches of the trees spoke of the cruelty of this sorrow. This very sorrow had stopped all life and was merciless enough even to compel the sun to make the vast countryside look like a narrow gloomy cave.

But the season had changed now and the hardness melted into tears that went down into the deep and dry wounds of the land to sooth it, heal it and nourish it for a new life to begin. The pleasing calmness of the warm sun had started melting the snow and the water began to take form. The land below the white cover had begun feeling the touch of the caring hands of the light rays. The touch made the dry and hidden seeds just under the soil surface realize that their day had come and their long awaited dream will come true now. The seeds had dreamt of a life and this day was the day of their birth.

Very soon the whole openness was covered with greenery. The sun looking down gave an expression of a victory it had just achieved. It seemed to look much brighter and the brightness was because of the sheer joy it felt – the joy of helping the blossoming of life. The whole surrounding was covered with tiny plants that proclaimed the success of the sun. It was obvious they wanted to thank it and they were really getting ready to give the sun a feast as a thanksgiving. They were busy nurturing the tiny buds on their fragile and wet branches. They would very soon have flowers on them. And these astonishingly lovely flowers would treat the sun with a beautiful glimpse of what this thing beauty means. The meadow would very soon become a land spread with a carpet of purple flowers running very far into the end of sight – far into the eternal vastness of the land.

The vastness of the carpet had some unusual broken highs at exactly regular distances. They looked like the sharp lines of the perfection the natural structure of life had to offer. The breaks were there because they had to be there - to make the frame complete. They didn’t mean to distort the smoothness of the waving meadow. They were making the stretch more beautiful – they made the waves rise and fall and the flow looked complete with their presence.

At the top of one such rising wave was the most tender of all the plants there. The tenderness looked apparent from its elfin stem and its grace traveled from the start of its stem at the ground, making every curve of the stem a work of an artful nature, traveling up to its highest peak, seemingly as high as the mountains in the backdrop, and ending in the most shy stanza on earth – Florem Purpa.

Florem Purpa was the most beautiful of all the flowers under the sun. The beauty of its innocent petals, the beauty its soft body, the beauty of its whole surface always fresh with the tiniest of the dew drops on it, the beauty of it gorgeous skin – all these elevated the position of Purpa above the rest of the flowers. Purpa was well known in every direction – as far to the unseen and unknown edges of the vastness. Purpa was respected and liked by every flower and the care was out of love for its beauty and dignity. There was not even a single breath of jealousy, for Purpa was more beautiful from inside – her heart was more beautiful than her slender body and only God knew how pure it was. There was no question about the superiority of Purpa. But her innocence of this superiority made her even more elegant and charmingly splendorous.

The new life was enchanting with every day filled with every color of life. The daily rising of the warm sun that filled more life into the air kept on increasing the charm of Purpa. The fresh breeze from the east would carry her fragrance to the other end of the earth and the other end would cry out of joy for what it had felt in its heart. Her presence made other flowers more fragrant. The more the breeze blew, the more she danced out of joy, the more mesmerizing was the air of her smell. There was no other example of life like her and she was ignorant of this.

Far up across the heights of the boundless the sky lived Cloudae Humilis. Cloudae Humilis was a fair weather cumulus cloud that had grown out of its usual appearance into the most astonishing piece of its genre. There was only one word that could explain this unusual phenomenon – humility. Humility was the description of its heart but the visual appearance it gave out was in extreme contradiction to its inner-self. The other clouds were jealous of it.

Humilis could be called as the rare occasion on which nature looked infinitely-dimensioned. Humilis was the only piece that denied the sky the authority it should possess due of its vastness. Humilis was the jar of solid water that humbled the sun though its appearance was only because of the sun. The background of Humilis was the blue sky – the very sky that was authority-deprived because of its presence. The same blue, the blue color of the open heart of Purpa – and the effect same on this piece too: Humilis denied the authoritative beauty of Purpa to rule the earthly heavens. The three bright colors of Humilis humbled this blue heart.

Humilis floated on its green color – the thin color that gave it flight and motion; that gave soothing power to its speed; that gave strength to its very existence – the green color of Purpa’s stem. The color on its head was crimson – the proclamation of its worth; a crown on its head; the life of its existence – crimson, Purpa’s favorite color. From the centre of these two colors came the color that destroyed the calmness of the sun rays – the yellow color – the same yellow color of the rays that had blushed Purpa.

Humilis came between the sun and Purpa whenever Purpa wanted a shade. Humilis showered cool drops of rain on Purpa whenever she wanted to dance – the rain that made her look more innocent and sensuous. Humilis glowed brighter whenever Purpa wanted to be entertained – the glow was more entertaining than the music of the gushing of waters at a nearby waterfall. Humilis did everything for Purpa and that made Purpa more and more like Purpa.

It was no doubt a unique bonding between a cloud and a flower – a rare phenomenon and a rare beauty. The distance that seemed to be a million miles between them made no difference to the hearts that were no more close than Purpa’s stem’s roots and the soil; no more than the sky and Humilis. Their love was related to the one between God and nature.

Every flower knew about the love between Humilis and Purpa. Their love was taken as an example for the marvels of life. Every cloud in the sky too knew about this – only that they were jealous. The clouds took this love as an example of the foolishness created by irrationals. But Humilis and Purpa never paid attention to this. They didn’t know this was called as love. They only knew that others called it as love. They never cared to name it. They were better off alone in the skies and on the earth. The presence of any life or emotion around them made no difference. They knew nothing but themselves and the unnamed relation between them. They only knew Humilis and Purpa who were made for each other.

Spring passed away and the summer arrived. The warmth of the summer brought them much close as Purpa needed shade and Humilis looked more wonderful with the brighter sun rays entering its mighty solidness. Their love grew with time and they grew with their love.

The peak of summer arrived and started a small pinch of discomforts in their hearts. They didn’t care for it. They cared for each other the most. They didn’t know what their future was, they just knew each other and the bond they had between them. They were least conscious of the change the nature has to undergo as the seasons pass by, they were only conscious of the bond that grew stronger with everyday passing by.

The end of a warm and cozy summer started the autumn. The leaves began to fall and the trees on the other side of the mountains began to change color. The color of the sun and the mountains too changed. There began the seasonal change in the direction of the breeze. This breeze sometimes even turned into wind. More and more leaves began to fall and more and more change began to take place.

The constant change finally made Humilis and Purpa aware of a little more than the existence of theirs’. The leaves below Purpa too began to grow orange. The stem began to turn crisp and the soft cushion under Purpa’s body began to harden. The color shades of Humilis began to darken as the sun rays changed their slanting and effect. Humilis began to lose size and shape. But none of this change could lessen their love. But they realized that the winter was near.

Then one pleasant evening, the evening that started unpleasantness, blew a breeze without any warmth in it. The uneasy temperature of the breeze couldn’t make Purpa dance. The smell of coldness in the breeze dried the blue heart of Purpa. Humilis felt the most of the new light. He shrank further. He sunk into himself. In a very far distance Humilis saw new pieces coming in. Humilis saw the clouds of winter at a fine distance from him. Even Purpa knew that the winter was here.

The distance between the harsh clouds began to become lesser than the distance between Humilis and Purpa. But their hearts were joined – no amount of coldness could harden them or separate them. The sun rays had already lost their brightness and Humilis became dim like a grey lifeless ball of cotton hanging in the sky that would be torn apart and blown away very soon. Purpa was dry with no single point of softness on it. It was as though the quality of softness was taken away from it to be stored in the heavens and preserved as a sample of richness and tenderness. Purpa was waiting for the final wind to blow it off into tiny pieces.

The day of their end arrived and they watched it happen with only one aim in their hearts – to be mixed into each other and left alone under the high mountains, untouched and unseen, until the eternity comes and takes them into the lap of the heavens. Their souls were already united and amalgamated; they only wanted it to be approved by the heavens. Their meaningless material bodies meant nothing to them, their connected spirits were just waiting to be accepted by the heavens.

The snow and the whistling wind were out of their hibernation. Humilis and Purpa were no more. Only the hard and cracked land beneath the snow knew of the two names. Only the sky above the winter clouds knew of their powerful un-dissipated love. Only the mountains knew of the weight and the depth of a single life – the life that was an integration of two souls which lived for each other. The winter was all that was left – as ignorant and innocent of ‘Humilis and Purpa’ as the charm of Purpa. The winter was all that was left – as strong and focused on its objective as the love of ‘Humilis and Purpa’….

…The seasons revolve and again comes the blooming spring; then comes the summer, the autumn; and again the winter. But now all this happens with a difference – every time it happens. Whenever they pass by the earth and every corner of it, they speak about only one thing ‘Humilis and Purpa’.

©2006 Zubair
 
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006
A Lesson from a Thief
The other day I fell into a discussion with a friend about a jewelry theft in Hyderabad. To be precise, we were not talking about the theft but the person who had accomplished it - the thief. He must be a real gem of a planner - I was impressed by the way he planned the theft and also the sharp skill with which he pulled it off with a perfect execution of that plan. But while he was setting up the whole game, he might have not given even a bit of thinking to what he was doing – he was in the becoming of a teacher, a masterpiece who’d end up giving me inspiration and a lesson beyond the worth of his own intellect. He gave me a contemporary example of a brilliant pondering we all ought to make. I have learnt an invaluable lesson yet I dislike the teacher.

Jewelry worth more than 60 million Rupees is probably more than just enough for an average person to spend the rest of his life with a 5-star lifestyle. It comes to a little less than 1.5 million USD. But this crazy buffoon didn’t know what to do with the reward of his extravagant victory as a thief. He couldn’t keep the booty with him even for 72 hours. He blasted himself and ended up cooling his heels behind the bars. He became the cause of an end in himself.
The unusual intelligence quotient of this man is pretty evident in the act he has committed. He can be regarded as among those who have a very great sagacity of human psychology and human nature as he could flummox many people until, and even after, he got his job completed. He believed he could do it and he did it.

When we believe – really, really believe - in ourselves that we can accomplish any task we want to, there is no way that we may end up not winning over it. Belief can do more than just moving mountains. It can turn them over or even burry them into the ground to the same depth of their height. Every great event has happened because people believed that it was possible. Victory is in a committed self-belief.

But this is not what that thief teaches. The notion that self-belief can make us do anything desirable is just a useless piece showing off in this incident. The later part of the game, the one played by the cops alongside, is the bigger story and the one with a brighter moral – “Cleaver dogs don’t go after wagons – they do not know what to do with the wagon after they have it.”

The culprit was jammed within 72 hours of his crime. He was caught with another person who was supposedly buying a part of the jewelry from him, that too not in Hyderabad but in Mumbai. This is not fate; this is the end result of two pretensions – the criminal character of that man, and his inability to contain his victory and its reward (though both in a bad taste).

We may get what we want but what is more important is the way we carry our accomplishment. Our gain from a victory can be a launching pad for more such victories to come, but also it can just turn out to be a disaster and destroyer of our life. The prize of hard work and the belief in our-self is always overwhelming when done on a bigger frame, and is a great acknowledgement of the amazing power man in capable of exhibiting. But when he doesn’t know what to do after he has won, his weakness in   stability becomes obvious. He holds the responsibility to his decision to go ahead with his quest for victory, and also the reward of that victory. But as long as he lays the foundation of his character on concrete moral values and fundamentals, he can be assured of peace to be at his discretion.
 
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006
"I don't want to name this"
“I can well say that I am proud to have you as my friend. But I won’t say that. This may sound …ok … let it sound whatever these innocents want it to … I say ‘I am proud of myself for being your friend’.”

He kept himself as if he had heard nothing. He didn’t even seem to be thinking of the words that have just flown by. He was writing and he continued doing it. She stood there glancing at her hand that was trying to feel something in the air. She knew she would feel nothing but she continued doing it.

Then she raised her other hand and clapped onto the fingers that were still in the air. She felt an un-hurting pain and she was pleased with what she had done - probably unintentionally. But she was happy with it. She smiled at herself imitating his style. She knew his style and she knew he was fully aware of her every word and her every action. She knew that he was aware of the little pain she had just felt. She had, with her clap, broken her glass finger-ring.

“Yes”, he said.

Then he smiled and allowed her to see it and let her know that he wanted her to see it. He had his head half-raised, and was still not looking toward her.

He gently laid the pen on the table above the book and saw to it that the book would help it stay there. He raised his head and continued “There is no point in having your cake and not being able to eat it. You take my advice; forget about the cake and the people looking at the cake. Think about your hunger.”

She stood there all attentive staring at his eye lids. She had that unusual smile on her face. But she had used this smile before while listening to him. She did understand nothing but she knew she would understand more than what others around will till the time he is finished with what he was saying.

He stood up and looked directly into her eyes. She felt he was not looking into her eyes but into her heart. He was reading a book written in her eyes.

“For this world you are not your perception but the perception of those who think about you as special. But other’s insight of your reality should not take you for a ride. Stand by the side of your perception as if it were to be your best friend. Your friend shall tell you what you are and what you must not be. Anybody need not make you feel yourself as a special person with his perception. You are special by yourself and your perception will let you know that. You friend knows a lot about you and will be there with you even when the world stops being with you. Your friend, the perception, loves you.”

He turned to her other friends who didn’t seem to be much interested in their conversation. Then he picked up the book allowing the pen to roll down in his other hand, read something from the book quietly, and sat down and went back to writing.

She still knew about his awareness of her sharp presence there. She knew he was still thinking about her. She went back to stare at her hand and the broken blue glass. By then the sunlight had reached the floor through the stripped windows and was feeling for the soothing blue color in the glass. The largest piece looked like the moon on its third day, and the other pieces like stars scattered around that moon. She was wondering if there was any relation between her two friends – her perception who will stand with her always, and him.
 
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006
The Right to Free Will
“But to pronounce moral judgment is an enormous responsibility. To be a judge, one must possess an unimpeachable character; one need not be omniscient or infallible, and it is not an issue of errors or knowledge; one needs an unbreakable integrity, that is the absence of any indulgence in consciousness, willful evil.”

These are lines directly from the essay “How Does One lead a Rational Life in an Irrational Society?” in the book “The Virtue of Selfishness” by Ayn Rand. It may not at first sight present any relation to the right to free will, but it does explain the direct duties a man acquires alongside this right.

The right, of a man, to free will – the right to select a course of action as a means of fulfilling his desires - is a right given to him by the moral law. He is free to choose any set of values and morals for himself and practice them with no threat and interference from any other man. He is also free not to choose anything. No other man can dictate conditions onto him and can in no way control what he decides to choose. It also entitles him from being free of any implications forced onto him by the society or any traditions or any culture. He is given the right to choose his own destiny.

When a man steps into the phase of his adulthood he embarks on a journey into his end and every step he takes thereafter, before this end, is a selection based on his value judgments or most probably some favorable criteria that guides him to logics and conclusions. He selects every thought he may aspire to continue thinking or any action he may commit. Every dot of the line of his life – right from his conscious living to his end – is freely opted by him and the values of these dots he holds. And he is free to perform all this based on the moral law that supports him with the right to free will.

But when he is free to follow his own will, the same law also prescribes onto him the ruling that he, in no way, can interfere with the same right that has been given to his fellow men too. The law binds him to himself and restricts his choices to his own courses of actions. One man cannot claim the moral right to violate the rights of another. Every man here is equated to every other man.

The right to free will is as necessary to a man as the right to live - living under the dictations of any force and without his will is the murder of man’s dignity and pride. But this right fortifies his self-esteem and elevates his personal level to a civilized being by allowing him to access and assess his own value systems and rationally choose anything that pleases him. This right gives man the power over himself to advance his being in any direction he wants.

Coming to values systems, rationality and directions, there is only one logic that materializes the whole right – ethical morals. If a man chooses a value system for himself that guides him into a direction that may destroy him or the use right itself is ill conceived and a show of immature rationality i.e., irrationality, then he is responsible for opting of ethical values destructive to him. When he chooses a course of action for himself he has chosen to be himself and so the consequent gain or loss is prescribed implicitly into his own credit.

Amongst all the creatures that live on this planet it is only the man that has the ability to act in a way that can reflect his survival instinct as a very weak one. Neither plants nor animals do anything that may result in their own destruction but man keeps doing it - just to clear any doubts of his possible mindlessness. He opts on the basis of his right to free will, intentionally or unintentionally, sometimes the courses of actions which turn out to be in his own disadvantage or even his end. (It is only a man who can commit suicide. Plants and animals never do that. If lower levels of self-destruction are considered, smoking can be taken as an example for that.)

So for a rational man, it is expected from him that the choice he makes about the dots of the line of his life to be an upshot of valid reasoning and purpose and not just a free irresponsible practice of his right to free will. He also stands responsible for all the consequences – good or bad – which are a response to his actions. And if he causes to affect others in an undesirable way or interfere with other’s respective rights, then he is entitled to be under the punishable force of the same law – the moral law.

So finally coming back to the lines of Ayn Rand - though they were in a slight deviation of the context as they were said for a good judge of a court of law, they can be found to describe a rational man who has to make reason based choices rather than answering his desires or emotions or whims or fancies or likeability.

Every claim a man stakes on himself is a simple approval of his inherent instincts that may or may not be good for him in a real honest sense, but what he chooses on self-grown and self-sustained reasoning is coherent and gives the definition of his character which again is implicitly self-opted.
 
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